I smell butts through clothes to see if diapers need to be changed.
Add to that; I constantly wonder about poop: Is he pooping too much? Why isn't he pooping more? Why is his poop so hard? Why does he have the shits again? OMG did he poop today?
I always feed baby before I feed myself.
I hide veggies in everything.
I cut the amount of time that I used to need to get ready in half.
I can carry a car seat, purse, diaper bag, grocery bags, and coffee at the same time.
I get my hair pulled on the daily.
I am a human tissue.
Add to that; I routinely find something crusty on my outfit. I have gone through more bottles of "Shout" in the last year than I have in my entire lifetime.
I gave up on having a perfectly spotless home.
Add to that; my carpet has been peed on & puked on. I don't deep clean nearly as often as I should. My stainless steel appliances are always covered in hand & tongue prints.
I say "NO" way more often than I should.
I've learned that having a child means there's no such thing as personal space.
Add to that; I now share my food, drink, seat, pillow, toothbrush, read:
everything... with my child.
I have perpetually dry hands from washing them a 1,000 times a day.
I
rarely stay up past 10:00 pm.
I naturally wake at least twice in the night to make sure that my baby is breathing.
I am tired all of the time.
I am always searching for more time in the day.
I have the ability to experience a roller coaster of emotions in just the matter of a few minutes.
I am not as good of a friend as I was once.
I don't spend enough one-on-one time with my husband.
I would rather shop for my child than for myself.
I don't get to travel nearly as often as I had hoped.
I am consistently in awe of how fast children learn new things.
I gave up a "pre baby body" for a "mom bod".
Add to that; I now prefer at least mid-rise jeans, comfy shoes, loose T shirts, and minimal jewerly.
I worry about
everything.
I am honored yet slightly terrified that I get to shape someone's future.
I constantly wonder if I am doing enough.
I have a completely different perspective on life.
I am a new person.
I am a life giver, a life lover, a first love, a teacher, a provider, a friend, a healer.
I am someone's whole entire world...
I have a new purpose:
Mom.
And I am blessed beyond measure!
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Wishing a very Happy Mother's Day to all the wonderful mommies out there, and especially all of the mommies with babies in heaven & all of the mommies still waiting to be mommies -- you are the real rock-stars.